Tough Weekday

Assalamualaikum wbh...

pic:from google image

Yes....absolutely, i'm going through a tough time for this weekday.

On Monday and Tuesday, Audit ISO from SIRIM...Alhamdulillah, i'm not selected...but still nervous for my beloved friends....unitmate (Kak Muzie and Kak Eg), officemate merangkap my housemate (Waheeda). I still get ready for it (auditting) especially LPS...

Listen the story from Kak Muzie, Kiela nyaris2 nk kena audit bcoz she wants a new lecturer from my unit...but bcoz of our KJ is very clever answered her question, i'm safe...alhamdulillah...

Next year must beware...and arrange all the document neatly...hope so....

Waheeda, Kak Muzie and Kak Eg diaudit dengan jayanye...Seronok and agak menggerunkan jgk dgr cite they all.

Then, on Wednesday until Friday...wakil from BMKPM come to observe us bcoz of excellent result in PSPM1....must get ready, takut-takut i'm the person will observed...must completing all the PB, rubric for assignments, notes and modul...preparing mentally and physically...wear shoes, nametag...what else...bring teaching journal to the class....attendance of course needed too.

At the wednesday evening (8.19pm), got message from my beloved friend, Nuyoi.

"Kiela, ayh nrl x dok doh ptg td"

Kiela bc that message many times...try to understand and try to avoid perasaan xelok...byk kali...then, Kiela call Nurul....but of course nurul dont pick up her phone...sebak dh terasa...betul ke ape yg aku fikirkan ni...

She texted me:

" Nrl x angkat tpn kiela, nrl msg je"

Mesej itu menjelaskan and memahamkan kiela, nurul dlm keadaan yg tidak stabil...amat sedih, ofcourse...

and i cnt stop my tears drop by....i wish, i be there with her for diz moment...hope so so much....

Try to calm down myself....i dunt know how nurul face this too hard situation...but i hope nurul cekal and sabar...

Nurul, Kiela doakan nurul and family tabah and sabar....terima pemergian arwah dengan redho...Allah lebih sygkan arwah...doakan smg arwah dirahmati Allah dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman...

Baru je rase berjumpe dengan arwah raye puasa diz year....time flies too fast....Al-Fatihah...

to Mariani: senyap-senyap je erk pe yg u dgr time u call me...Kiela just xdpt tahan..i'm try but cnt....

Still thinking of Nurul....

Cannot wait the coming of Friday bcoz ada ceramah agama" aku terima nikahnya"...the title sound interesting...i'm going back home diz weekend together-gether with Waheeda...pray for our save journey friends....

Going busy about preparation for annual dinner or AIKK kolej...lemah nye semangat bila kena buat persembahan...baju plok xthu nk pki ape...maklum la bukan jenis melawa...lastly just pickup random baju-baju yang biasa pakai g kerja...huhuhu....will see friends how i look like that night...hehhehe....

i think the entry for this time is too long...so before i write something that sound so weird, or u all dh xlarat nk bc better i stop right.....heheheh

till then...see you reader...

hope next week...keadaan kembali bertenang....amin...

Wassalam...

footnote: all the best to my sis and my cousin yg sedang berdebar-debar nk tahu result PMR...Kak La doakan both of u dari kejauhan Gambang ini...

Friendships are important, especially between women.  We are really there to support each other and help one another through the tough times. 

Salam Maal Hijrah...1432 H

Assalamualaikum w.b.h...

Today,

8th Dis 2010 bersamaan 2 Muharam 1432 H...

Yesterday,

7th Dis 2010 bersamaan 1 Muharam 1432 H...The first day of the year is observed on the first day of Muharam, the first month in the Islamic Calendar.

Just late a day...I gonna wish Salam Tahun Baru 1432 H to all muslims all over the world.

As muslims,  orang Islam, awal muharam must celebrated dengan penuh kesyukuran, dengan penuh ketakwaan, do or attend various religious activities.

Syukur alhamdulillah to those yg membaca doa akhir tahun and doa awal tahun. InsyaALLAH amalan kita diterima dan diberkati olehNya...amin....

Berita gembira juga, my parents already at our home sweet home...

Byk nak cerita, but dunt know how to start...Next time if i got a long free time, i will post the entry about kepulangan my parents from Tanah Suci Mekah...InsyaAllah...

See you dear readers...Love all of you...

Azam baru ape ye???hehehe...Biarlah rahsia...Malu nk cakap, becoz i think u all hv a lot of great faithfulness...am i rite...

Lastly....i got it

Assalamualaikum...

Kiela menaip entry for dis time dlm mood: Happy, Excited, Thankful

InsyaALLAH diz evening i will bertolak to my hometown after work wif my sis and my eldest bro. InsyaALLAH tomorrow evening my parents will arrive from Makkah...so excited...i can't wait for diz moment...pray for everythings my beloved friends...

Hope our journey safe dan blessed Allah.

Thinking about how hard to apply CRK. Then, lastly kiela bertekad jgk untuk call and apply again. Even, kena sindir, kena marah, cite sensasi bakal dijaja,....i dunt care...In this situation, i really need it...

Alhamdulillah, lastly....i got it...CRK 2 days.Thank a lot.

Just packing my things last nite...i know my sis xsabar nk balik jgk (bwk die jalan2 ke Kuantan for 2 weeks).

Xsabar jgk nk jumpe my Afnan...i got the story, he SUDAH GEMUK!!!muke bulat.Maybe stay wif my eldest sis, he cannot active like usual. hehehe...its ok adik, u still cute like ur sis...(memperasankan diri sekali sekala)hehehe....

Ok...see u again my beloved friends and my supportive readers...have a nice day guys....

footnote:
*Happy birthday to my cikna...dah bagi awal hadiah kt die hari tu...May all of your day  be filled with sunshine and smiles, laughter and love.

*Happy belated birthday to my housemate, Miss Waheeda Abdul Wahab.I hope all your  dreams and wishes come true

Bila "dia" lebih berhak...:(

salam...

juz short entry...

current mood: "gembira sgtttt"

"Dia".....Please consider!!!...susahnya nk dpt off 2 days..i'm not go to enjoy or holiday...just to pick up my parents at airport...so excited to look their face, hug them, salam and cium their hands...after 47 days...

Lastly got half day off for Thursday....1day CRK. agaknya salah timing saat request for dat...Redha dalam  kesedihan yang xdpt diucap...

Cannot jemput my parents at airport on Thursday, jangka smpi at airport Terengganu at 2.00 pm....just meet them at home becoz i'm just can leave my college after my class on Thurday end at 1.00 pm...Merempit tahap dewa pun xsmpt smpi Ganu pukul 2.00 pm...so, i redha...

"dia" will understand my feeling, and rasa ape yg i rasa when "dia" or family "dia" mengalami nya...

I...semakin mendekatkan diri dari "dia"...

I...murung and cannot focus in my class...

Hanya padaNya tempat mengadu...

ADIKKU...AFNAN HAKIM

08.11.2010 (9.05 pm) in waheeda's myvi.

Kiela: Hello, assalamualaikum adik

Afnan: Waalaikummussalam...... kak la (jwbnya slow, i think more than 10 seconds the time that he taken.hehehe)

Kiela: hehehe...adik wat nape tu?

Afnan: erm...(sempat lagi fikir2)...adik baru sahaja selesai makan nasi, pas tu adik duduk depan tv, baring2 , pas tu adik tgok tv (slang dh tukar cakap Perak -org ganu kata "cakap luor".one  by one die cakap die sudah dan sedang buat ape).

Kiela: adik makan nasi lauk pe?sedap dop?

Afnan: sedap r...adik makan nasi lauk pelam cicoh budu...(Kiela yang mendengar menelan air liur....terliur wei...huhuhu)

Kiela: sedap ngat adik...Kak La nk sket boleh....lame xmakan lauk tu (padahal baru je makan time cuti sem hr tu...hahahha)

Afnan: Kak La mari la sini (Perak) , makan ngan adik...

Kiela: xleh la...Kak La keje....xpe, balik ni adik wat blik deh (lambat lagi tu)

Afnan: ok...(pah tu die diam)

Kiela: Watpe senyap dik?

Afnan: Kak La, adik rindu sangat ke ma dan abah....(Kiela: terdiam dan terkedu while i try to stop my tears drop.ada dlm my friend's car bcoz otw nk g makan. Padahal Kiela sgt sebak and i cnt believe he will talk like that).

Kiela: erm...xpe la adik, x lame doh ma ngan aboh nok balik...adik sabor la.duduk ngan kak long dlu...keggi balik la ngan klong masa ma ngan aboh balik keggi deh. ma ngan aboh tepon dok adik?

Afnan: tepon maren.adik ckp la ngan ma , ngan aboh. (Kedengaran suaranya sebak dan tersekat-sekat....Kiela???lagi la....pujuk hati dunt cry...huhuhu...)

Kiela: ma ngan aboh gane, sihat x?adik ckp lame x? (Kiela bertanya sambil tergagap2...mcm bru nk bljor ckp je....hahahha)

Afnan: Ma sihat...aboh sakit tekok (seminggu di Mekah aboh dh sakit tekok, i hope that problem not disturb him to focus on ibadah).

Kiela: xpe la dik, xlame doh ma ngan aboh nok balik dumoh...(terdiam lagi...xthu nk ckp cmner doh)
ok la dik, Kak La nk g kedai makang kejap ni...xmakang lg hari ni...Kak La tepon adik esok plok deh...(janji ku lagi..need to call him everyday to avoid him feel lonely).

Afnan: ok Kak La....tepon adik deh...Kak La, Kak La, erm...adik nok bagitahu ni...erm...Kak La kena tepon adik setiap hari pada pukul 9 pagi (die sudah wake up from sleep) dan 9 malam (already done taken his dinner).boleh??? (Kiela???terdiam...kemudian gelak....macam orang tua2 plok budak ni.dari mana dia dapat idea cmni pun, i dunt know la.how he can make a request like dat...cmner die plok terfikir nk bagi jadual wktu utk call die everyday....hahhaha....my bro dh semakin besar and maybe pengaruh of cartoon....:))

Kiela: Pukul 9 pagi  Kak La ada ngajor anok murid Kak La...

Afnan: Pukul 12 boleh? (hahaha...mcm main jual beli aje)

Kiela: erm...Pukul 1 la dik...Kak La abih kelas masa tu...boleh?

Afnan: ok Kak la...so... (aik...speaking plok doh awang ni)...Kak La tepon adik pukul 1 ngan 9 malam deh?

Kiela: ok dik...ok lah, Kak La nk smpi kedai makang doh ni...Kak La tepon edok deh...duk molek dumoh Kak Long...Jangan baloh ngan Daniel (Daniel tu baby yg Kak Long jage...selalu mengekori afnan ke sana ke mari sehingga merimaskan die....biasa la afnan biasanye lonely je di rumah except di sekolah tadika nye....)
k dik, bye, assalamualaikum.

Afnan: k bye...waalaikummussalam.... (ended call)

Kiela....terdiam think about talking2 ngan Afnan Hakim tadi...sedih and senyum lucu....semenye bercampur....

Kesian kt adik...ma and abah just leave us for 25/ 47 days. wait and be patient for 22 days yet...

Alhamdulillah sudah 25 hari my parents were there, Tanah Suci Mekah. Pray for them everyday so that they can beribadah dengan baik dan sempurna...The most important they diperkenankan Allah mendapat Haji yg Mabrur, InsyaALLAH. Happy Hajj with many good rewards to ma and abah.

love both of you so so much....

ma, amir n cik zah

mama punya beg

 abah punya beg

 bag to both of them

busy tampal stiker

byie, shahid, amir and abg long

ma waiting for announcement

gmbor ma aje smpt ambik, abah xdang

I MISS AFNAN HAKIM LIKE CRAZY....huhuhuhu...

adik and iddin

footnote:

*takziah to Ruzy atas pemergian ayahanda nya yg tercinta ke Rahmatullah hari Khamis yg lepas (4 Nov 2010). sabar atas dugaan ini and ingatlah Allah lebih menyayangi arwah....Al-Fatihah.

Dream come True...

Assalamualaikum....

Today is Wednesday...

Tomorrow is Thursday...

hehehe...

on Thursday, kiela back to my hometown, Kuala Berang.

InsyaALLAH, on Saturday, 16 hb Oktober, my parents (ma and abah) akan bertolak ke Mekah. Alhamdulillah, lastly diz year ada rezeki ma and abah menunaikan Haji di Mekah. Niat di hati ingin ikut bersama, but....faham2 je la...no money enough...huhuhu....pray hard, menabung from now to achieve it. Pray for both of them and all muslimin muslimat yg mengerjakan rukun haji ke-5 diz 1431 H. semoga semuanya berjalan lancar, all ibadah dilakukan sesempurna mungkin, diberikan kesihatan yang baik dan kekuatan dalam beribadah di tanah suci.

Alhamdulillah, cuti (CRK) approved. hampir setahun bekerja, baru dpt apply CRK ni. Gembira hatiku...alhamdulillah....

Xsabar nk balik...miss them so much...udah lame rasenye tidak menampakkan my cute face di kg halaman...hehehehe...

Hope my bro bertolak subuh2 pagi esk from Selangor so that both of us can arrived at home as morning as can. Drive cik ver yg sudah berkilat and harum wangi ku belai yesterday (takut kena ceramah free dr cikna if cik ver comot)...doakan perjalanan and semua urusan kami dirahmati and diberkati...amin...

see yaa....

Tanpa perasaan

Assalamualaikum...salam sejahtera...

current mood: xdok perasaan...huhuhu

Xpandai and x suka untuk write somethings about my feeling here, but i dunt have any medium yet...share wif family (i x pandai), share wif friends (erm...maybe rase semakin jauh hati, maybe juz small matter and maybe they busy)...so take decision to write down about it here.

back to diz entry....

why  xdok perasaan ketika entry ini ditulis...kerana perkara cm ni dh beberapa kali berlaku  sejak bekerja. Time perkara ni terjadi, sedihnya Allah saje yg tahu...i'm crying and crying again (always ingt kan myself dunt easier drop my tears, but i cn't)...huhuhu...Kita hormat dia kerana dia lebih tua, and kita tahu die lebih byk tahu, lebih berhikmah dlm berkata-kata, lebih pandai mendidik anak buahnya dek lamenye die di bidang ni. but byk yg salah dri yg betul...

ku:

* x pandai membodek

* x pandai nk ramah-tamah

* x pandai nk bermuka-muka

* x pandai nk menyerlah

 x kisah untuk ditegur, jika kena pada tempatnya. hargai semua teguran, setiap pandangan, setiap nasihat yg masuk ke telinga kanan (pasti x keluar di telinga kiri).

x kisah untuk dimarah, tapi biarlah secara profesional, biarlah berhemah, biarlah berhikmah. 

sangat sedar banyak yg x tahu dari tahu. tapi berilah peluang untuk diri ini berubah, tingkatkan ilmu, belajar apa yang patut seiring dengan peredaran masa. pengalaman baru secuit, jangan mengharap lebih dari dr kemampuan.

Lihat diri sendiri before menghukum org lain. selagi bernama manusia, kesalahan sentiasa ada. berilah ruang & peluang.

Biar pun kita berada di atas, hormatlah jua pada yang berada di bawah...

I cn't respect her anymore....huhuhu...suspect adalah....huhuhu...

footnote

*always remind  myself, jangan pilih kasih

*always betulkan myself before tegur org lain

*dunt sakitkan or kecilkan hati org lain

*respect each others

*love yourself and family